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To perimena edw k arketo kairo .. iksera oti tha ftaname edw.. na min milame. Na akouw to onoma sou kai na me pianei ena sfiksimo stin kardia kai na thelw na ourliaksw..den kserw giati to epetrepsa auto ston eauro mou, isws giati panta sinanastrefomoun me ta kaka paidia, kai vrika esena to swsto. Pou isoun to kalitero paidi.. ti ginetai omws otan siniditopioeis oti to kalitero paidi sou simperifertike opws enas alitis??5 xronia mazi sou, 5 xronia na dinw, na dinw polla perissotera apo oso edwses esi. Ta panta, to spiti mou, to krevvati mou, tin agkalia mou, ta filia mou , poses fores afisa tous dikous mou antrwpous gia na perasw ena vradi mazi sou. Ena aplo vradi mazi sou, poso lathos mporei na imoun? Den metaniwnw pou sou edwsa oti sou edwsa, to ithela, kai tha to ekana ksana k ksana kai isws parapanw auti ti fora, giati ontws se agapisa . Apla an me agapouses kai esi tha itan to idaniko. Imoun pantou kai panta gia sena, giati auto ithela. 5xronia den me epsakses pote, panta imoun ekei, den sou afisa kanena perithwrio na me anazitiseis.. lathos mou giati me thewrises dedomeni, eixes gennethlia tis proalles kai den me kales kan... se rwtisa pou tha giortsaoume kai mou eipes pouthena, tha meinw spiti.. mathenw oti ekanes genethlia se magazi kanonika, kai egw pouthena. Pouthena den imoun gia sena, to evlepa re gamwto to eniwtha. Apla den ithela na to pistepsw, nomiza oti vrika to kalo paidi... oxi agapi mou.. mporei na isoun kalo paidi gia tous filous sou gia tin mama sou gia tous girw sou, alla gia mena isoun oti xeirotero. Poso asxima niwthw pou edw kai 3 evdomades exeis eksafanistei, xwris kan na mou peis teleiwsame.Ti einai olo auto??? Peftw na koimithw kai vlepw oneiro oti irthes spiti mou kai me psaxneis, prospathw na sou anoiksw tin porta kai den mporw(mipws den thelw?). Poso melo ginomai exw arxisei kai me sixainomai. pou eimai? Me eksafanises..Sixathiaka na s agapaw , m akous???Sixathika na min eimai pouthena gia sena, m akous??mono o eautos sou k i perifimi oikogeneia sou, m akous??Nai re vlamene se agapisa, se agapisa oso den paei allo..Nomizw oti auta ta 4 xronia pou imoun mazi sou eklepsa oso den paei allo, gia sena gia emas. Giati eixa alla oneira gia mas. Ipologiza xwris esena kai mono me to ti eniwtha egw, isws den mporeses na diaxeiristeis wrima olo auto pou eniwsa kai niwthw gia sena gia auto ftasame ws edw. Na ksereis mono pws an eniwthes estw kai ligo gia mena kati den tha ftaname ws edw. Den tha egrafa edw, tha eimastan mazi edw agkalia , poso mou xeis leipsei. Me exw xasei kai esi ftais, ftais pou pistepsa se sena k se emas.Den tha t epitrepsw pote ksana na me pligwsei kaneis. Se euxaristw pou me emathes na min agapw kanenan. Seuxaristw m akous..