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niw8w oti osa xronia kai an perasoun dn tha 3exasw pote ekeinh thn hmera..!..epeidh exasa oti agapousa perissotero ton fulaka aggelo m ,ton mpampaka m!!.. den mporw na 3exasw den 8elw na 3exasw tipota apo osa ezhsa me ton mpampa m...!!!.. alla fovamai polu oti 8a 3exasw !!.. Niw8w oti h pragmatikothta einai sta oneira m gt eimaste oloi mazi ..otan 3upnaw zw enan efialth...Diafora sunais8hmata ..alla pio polu mona3ia!!! Kleinw ta matia m kai gurizw se ekeinh thn eikona.. me ton patera m pesmeno katw sto patwma ..kai oi giatroi na prospaoun na ton swsoun....!!!Omws auto pou me ponaei perissotero einai oti dn mporesa na ton swsw...Htan savvato kai hmouna monh me ton mpampa m spiti etoimazomastan na 3ekinhsoume na vapsoume to spiti..Alla o mpampas kati eixe trigurize apo dwmatio se dwmatio dn milage..egw ka8omouna sto dwmatio kai evlepa thleorash ..hr8e dipla m me agkaliase ..kai tote arxize na m milaei me proetoimaze..mou elege an kapoia stigmi ginei kati otidhpote na paramineis dunath!!kai tote tou apantaw 8a eimai dunath gt exw dipla osous agapw mpampa...kai epeita mpampa esu ti 9a me afhseis an se xreiazomai?... me koita3e gurise to kefali tou kai tou lew ti einai mpampa ti exeis?...kai me koitaei kai m xamogelaei..fovi8ika gia prwth fora sthn zwh m ..kai mou epiase to xeri m kai m eipe oso kai an megalweis egw 8a eimai ekei kai 8a vadizw mazi sou kratwntas to mikro sou xeri oti kai na 8es 8a eimai panta dipla sou!! ton agkaliasa kai tou eipa na mn me afiseis pote mpampa..tote arxize na dihgeitai ena paramu8i ..panta auto ekane .. mesw twn paramu8iwn m apantouse!!..panta htan ekei otan to xreiazomouna!!me filhse sto metwpo kai m eipe oti mas agapas..o mpampas m protimouse na mas to deixnei me pra3eis thn agaph tou!!tou xamogelasa kai tote shkw8ike kai phge apo to saloni (makari na mn efeuge pote apo dipla m )...phre kapoion thlefwnw kai ka8ise katw ..omws meta dn mporouse na shkw8ei.eri3e ta pragmata katw tou fwna3a ..prospa8isa na ton voh8hsw na shkw8ei 3a plwse katw ..fovi8ika peira tin mama m thlefwnw dn to shkwne .. kolisa .. to mono pou ekana einai na ton koitazw meta apo liges wrea hre o aderfos m ..prospa8isame na to shkwsoume dn ta kataferame 3ana phrame thn mama kai tote mas eipe na doume an exei sfugmo dn eixe ..tote mou eipan na dw an anasainei akousa mono mia anasa ..tote!! to mono pou 8umamai einai na tou krataw to xeri dn argise na er8ei h mama to gurisame mazi ths hr8an oi giatroi me travi3an apo konta tou .. phga apo to dwmatio to moo pou ekana einai na proseuxomouna na zhsei ..oi giatroi me rwtagan apo ti wra einai katw dn tous milaga to mono pou tous rwtisaa einai an o mpampas m zei?..dn m apantisan phga dipla tou me tin elpida na ton dw na einai kala kai na mou xamogela ..eida evlepa th mana m na klaei..kai tote eniwsa ena periergo sunais8ima ..me ponage ourlia3a fwnaza ton mpampa m tou elega esu eipes oti dn 8a me afhseis..oti 8a eisai dipla m se parakalw 3upna ..!! me travagane h fwnh mdn evgaine h8ela na fwna3w na mn me paroun apo dipla tou..exoun perasei 5 xronia dn katafera na 3eperasw to pono apo pou mou prokalese o 8anatos tou patera m... oxronos dn se voh8a psemata einai auto anti8etos nostalgeis perissotero ton anrwpo sou...eimai 8umwmenh pou dn katafera a ton swsw..h zwh m apo tote htan psuxologoi me voh8hsan dn lew..alla dn kataferan na m paroun to pono..dn mporousa na anasanw eixa kleistei ston eauto m ..milaga stis fwtografies tou foraga ta poukamisa tou .. o mpampas m eixe adunamia kai egw eixa ena megalo desimo mazi tou otan efuge ..ena kommati m efuge mazi tou!!..h plhgh sakoma uparxei dn ekleise..sunexizw (giati?)...epeidh auto 9a h9ele o mpampas m ... 8elw na ginw kalos a8rwpos san auton...o mpampas htan psuxoula..htan san mikro paidi pou h8ele frontida!!!htan polu dunatos ...alla sto 8anato fanike adunamos 3erw oti dn h8ele na mas afhsei...(giati?)... einai o fulakas aggelos m gt se kae vima m apo mikri o mpampas m me prosexe ..otan xtipousa htan ekei..mou ema8e na eimai dunath..kai sunexizw me ti sumvoules tou....exw thn mama m ..pou einai konta m ... me voh8aei!!!..MOY LYPEI POLY O MPAMPAS MOY!!!... 3espaw krufa apo thn mama m..an dn to kanw dn 3erw alla etsi niw8w polu kala!!!