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Kathe fora pou ksekinas kati kenourio pada se kunigane ola ta proigoumena dn kserw giati sumbenei afto alla to parelthon sou einai afto pou se kanei na kles kai oxi to melon sou... Giati ta lew ola afta anarwtiese h apadisi exei ws eksis estw oti kapote pou eisoun pio evalotos kai anoigosoun sto kosmo kapoios h kapoia se pligwse borei kai xwris na te ithele alla afto exei sa sunepia esu na parameneis kleistos se oti kainourio erxete kai etsi kataligis na eisai esu sti thesi aftou pou se pligwse.Gia na stamatisw ta genika kai tis malakies i katastasi exei ws eksis i tha katalikseis monos kai dn tha katafereis pote na vreis afto pou psaxneis i tha ta dokimaseis ola dimiourgodas provlimata se alous gia tis lathos epiloges sou..Enas anthrwpos eftekse gia afto pou eisai kai tha tin plirwsoun aloi penida mexri na kataferis na vreis afto pou thes alla pragmatika twra ksereis ti thes?Einai sxedon xeimwnas exei ksekinisei oi sxoli mexri prin pernas gamata me tin parea kai ola kilane xalara exeis kai tis peripetioules sou exeis pligwsei kai kamia 5-6 kopeles apo tin teleftea fora pou apofasises oti tha ekanes odws kati sobaro mazi tous kai tote se xtipaei niwtheis ksana afto to sunesthima oti thes kati sobaro kati ligo parapanw gt stamatise na exei endiaferon to aneleito kunigi gia sex kai arxises na niwtheis adios kai oti dn emine tipota pleon na se gemizei apo kana akuro gamisi me kapoia gomena pou se goustare paliotera kai apla ksana arxises na exeis epafes mazi tis giati itheles na anevaseis to noumero sou...Einai lipiro pou exw, kai pistevw o kathenas exei TOOSA pola na dwsw exw tosi agapi na dwsw afti ti stigmi giati dn edina katholou gia polu kairo meta apo tote pou ekini i kariola pou skeftomai akoma kai twra meta apo 3 xronia me afise adio....Kaiii erxete mia i opoia dn diaferei poli apo tis akires peripetioules pou eixes ton telefteo kairo alla einai i tuxeri afti pou tha ispraxei tin agapi sou xwris na einai kapoia simadiki gia sena kai tote tha detheis kai tha perasei ligos kairos pou tha niwtheis oti kati kataferes alla kai pali i suniditopoihsi dn argei na erthei..Exw ton tropo mou me tis kopeles xwris polu prospatheia katafernw na tis fero koda mou kai na kanoun kati mazi mou ... den prospathw na to paiksw kati apla etsi ginete pithanotata na fteei pou eixa megaliteri adelfi kai apo polu mikros sunanastrefomoun me kopeles isws fteei pou mesa stin athootita mou akoubisa mouni stin 3h dimotikou kai eniwsa tis prwtes mou kavles dn kserw kai gw ti borei na fteei apla sumfiliothika me to aditheto filo kai bika ws ena simio stin psixologia tous.. pou prospathw na kataliksw telos padwn? ekei pou thelw na ftasw einai pws akoma kai sunesthimatika adios an eisai boreis na kaneis mia kopela na se agapisei me enan aplo tropo... min eisai o eaftos sou... nai kserw akougete aprosopo kai asximo alla etsi einai distixos dn pistevw pws gia ton kathena mas uparxei enas anthropos pou teriazoume teleia me alous tha teriakseis perrisotero me alous ligotero alla me kanenan apoluta kai edw erxomaste sto ti thes na kerdiseis apo to atomo pou sinanastrefese...???Egw gia polu kairo ithela apla na gamaw alla, ginomon oti ithele i kathe kopela ksexwrista na ginw. Tin katalavena mexri ekei pou xreiazotan gia na tin ftasw sto krebati kai etsi gamousa kai ekana diafores alles malakies me kamia dekaria xwris na simenei tipota gia mena. Alitheia ti noima exoun ta noumera kai ti noima exei na pistevoun oi alloi oti esu gamas gomenakia enw stin pragmatikotia ponas kai ponas giati polu apla dn einai to sex pou sou lipei oute i idoni, einai i KALVA pou sou lupei alla oxi i sunithismeni kavla sou lupei afti pou pernaei apo to mualo sou kai katevenei sti kardia kai sto stomaxi sou kai stamataei ekei, se kanei na esthanese teleia xwris na exeis anagi to sex xwris na xreiazete na sundetheis amesa me ton allon swmatika na arkei ena fili gia na kanei oti ekanan oi alles me olo tous to swma....Eimai (tha egrafa eimoun alla distixos akoma etsi sinexizw kai apelpizomai...) , eimai afto pou theloun na eimai eimai enas megalos kopanos kai malakas pou dn sevete mia kopela alla kanei ta pada gia na parei oti thelei apo afti. Enas ithopios enas pseftis pou prosarmozete se kathe katastasi diaforetika kai afto einai to sundromo mou... to sundromo tou chameleoda.